So yesterday was about the same as any clean, cook, take care of kids & deal with him!!! I'm really stressed today because I told him I have a lot of bills due this week & his response was my paycheck was not very big !! WHAT ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!?! I asked why is that , he responded that he did not get a lot of hours! What again? We'll degum from what I thought you had 100 plus hours being you have been up everyday at 5:00am & not getting home till 8:00 9:00 10:00 or even later !! So I get a 150.00 to pay 1,500$ worth of bills!! Then he has the nerve to come home tonight & complain because one of our sons was still up @ 8:30 studying for 9weeks test! I informed his illiterate self if he came home at a decent hour & helped with homework we would not still be studying!! He so has nerve! Comes home to a clean house a good super cooked kids bathed & taken care of, all he has to do is eat shower & go to sleep!! O & pick my tomatoes that sooooo we're not ready to be picked, he just could not stop his self from touching my plants!! My goodness does he not stop to think if I wanted them picked I would have done it my self!!! He is such a busy body that he can not leave anything be!!

I'm very new to the blogging world so bare with me! :) I've been wanting to start a blog for a long time now in hopes it maybe help some or even give some a laugh! I've kept a journal since I was a little girl  & my so called husband burned most of them because he said it was too incriminating  against him!! Go figure!! His brain works as good as a 10yr old boys would & being he has been a meth head for 25 plus yrs, he thinks a little "wiggy" I call it! His brain does not work/think like the everyday persons!! I have been living this life for 20 plus yrs now & think I'm at my breaking point with putting up with his lies, cheating, running off weird thinking Ext.... For example last week he got up every morning at 5:15 as usual to leave for work but did not work all week!! Thursday morning he left & did not come home for three days, no phone call nothing!! When he finally came home he acted as if nothing happened!! I'm sure he was off with one of his MANY DOPE WHORES!! I'm expected to sit back & keep my mouth shut like everything is fine ! See a meth head can't Handel conflict of any kind!! He is one of the lucky METH HEADS you see because he has me to keep a normal life that he can hide behind! You would never no by looking & talking to him the he was on it! On the out looking in it appears that he is a hard working good father/husband that does no wrong ! Granted he is a good father to our children & never puts us in harms way of any kind! The funny part is he is always downing on me I never do anything write & do everything wrong!! "Washing clothes for example" I wash clothes while he is at work fold them nice & put them away we'll the minute I turn my back or he thinks I'm asleep he will go in his closet get ALL of his clothes & wash them!!! Not only does he rewash them he puts 3-4 scoops of soap powder or more thinking it's gonna clean them better!! When he uses any kind of cleaning supplies he always over does it!!! "We " normal people would use one squirt of soap to wash our hands, not him try 3.4.5.... His famous words to our boys are " GO WASH YOUR HANDS" SO OBSESSIVE!! The other day I was washing whites so I put bleach in the washer of coarse & he comes in & puts he good pants in there, lol lol lol I got joy out of watching them turn white! Dummy ... I often wonder how he lives in his own head because I can hardly  be around him he drives me crazy the way he does every day things!! We'll lets see if he comes home tonight?!?!?!Janelou4276@gmail.com